It sounds to me like you're on the precipice of a breakthrough. It's frightening because you're in preparation for the success you've always wanted and you're not sure what it looks like yet. The tunnel is always darkest before we reach the light.

You're taking every responsible step toward getting your inspiration back. Give it time to work. In the meantime, we're rooting for you! If you read around Medium, a lot of people are feeling the same including me.

Plus, you have so much life ahead of you at 38. Look at all your accomplishments thus far. One day you'll look back and wonder what you were worrying about. And, you might consider taking a healthy break from social media. All the best! 🙏🏽💚